Be inspired to serve God...

Hey followers,

My sister, Tamara, will be on air today talking about her I Am Second campaign, life with stage 4 cancer and her inspiration to serve God. Despite all obstacles in our life, we know our calling. So proud of Tam for speaking out about it! We should never be afraid to LOVE our God and show that love!

Tune into: GroundedRadio.com at 11:10 (CT)
You can also submit questions to groundedradio.com

Love to you all~

Today...I am thankful for many things

This morning, I woke up with an over whelming feeling of thanks. I prayed a very long, extensive prayer over the many things I feel thankful for at this moment. I decided to "blog" them, so when I am having a bad moment, I can look back at how blessed we are...

Today, I am thankful for:

Prayer
Warm showers when I need a place to cry
My husbands hugs
Lukes Smile
Love
Friends that filled our home with food, so we didn't have to cook at all for awhile
Friends&Family that filled our home with beautiful flowers that are alive and in full bloom
Hebrews 11:1...a daily reminder of what Faith is
Family
Sweet text messages
Easter! A perfect moment for us to reflect on Jesus' love for us
Making Easter baskets with Luke for his friends
Easter candy =)
Chris Tomlin's and Shane&Shane
100 phone calls to my sister daily
Sunshine
Fresh Flowers
All things innocent and kind
The way Luke dances
Puppies that have 100 kisses on hand at any given time
My J, whose love is unconditional...

Some days are overwhelming, some days are filled with love. We just have to find the little blessings in life to keep us going and confident~

An Early Easter...

Jeter checking out Luke's eggs =)

Hunting Easter Eggs!

Luke celebrated an early Easter with my his Nana&Papa in NM. We had a fun sunday afternoon. Started with a church pie auction (yum!). Followed with fajitas and an Easter Egg hunt for Luke at my in-laws. It was a beautiful day~

Luke's busy weekend

Nanny, Aunt T, and Justin took Luke to "kids day" at the civic center. He sang Twinkle Little Star on the karaoke display! I got to see the video, it was adorable!

Daddy helping Luke out with 1 of the craft booths

Nanny and Aunt T took Luke to see Sesame Street Live at the United Spirit Arena! He has talked about it all day everyday since =)

Nanny & Luke

Tamara walked with the KD's as their "hero" at the Relay for Life. Posing with 1 of the current KD's...

Park play time with Nanny~

In the bounce house at the Relay for Life

J and Luke walked the "survivor lap" with Aunt T at the Relay for Life

Her pride and joy =)

One day at a time...

Now faith is the substance of things hoped for, the evidence of things not seen--Hebrews 11:1

- Taking one day at a time right now. Spending lots of time, loving on Luke. Thanking God every second of the day for him. Children are all miracles. Being able to have children and raise them is a miracle in itself. I do not know if we will ever be able to carry another child to full term. Although, it hurts, I still praise God daily that we have a child to love and hold.

This week has been rough. I have spent the whole week on lots of pain meds, so it is quite a blur as well. But, I did get some things accomplished. Planned both of Luke's 3rd birthday parties. With the help of my sister, we got all the invites made and mailed. (Thank you Hobby Lobby!) Spent a lot of time loving on Luke. Spent a lot of time in prayer and thankfulness of having Justin and our families.

This weekend, Luke is going to stay in NM with Justins family for a night. Justin thinks it will be good to go out on a date and get a little extra rest. I couldn't agree more. Then, just working in our garden.

We are just moving, a little step at a time. Remembering to put 1 foot in front of another. Because, sometimes, that is all we can do.

Angry for being angry

For my normal happy, cheerful self, I am not that today. Maybe tomorrow. Everyone in the house is napping, but my mind is racing so much that I need to write to vent.

8 days ago, our life was normal. In the past 8 days, I found myself in the hospital fighting for my life, my baby lost their life, and tomorrow they are surgically removing my baby. I find myself trying to make sense of it all. What just happened? I have no idea still. The pieces of the past week will come to me. Despite everything, I still love our God. I am angry, yes, but understanding. I trust in His plan more than I have ever trusted in anything in my life. With that being said, it does not mean it makes sense to me by any means.

Tomorrow will be a long day. I cannot come to terms yet with everything, but I know I will have to face that tomorrow. With Justin by my side and my family waiting for me at home, I know the Lord has not abandoned me either. I am just so confused, upset, hurt...