Well, I finally had my anxiously awaited doctor appointment to discuss my uterus, cervix, pelvis, etc. How fun? Right...WRONG.
I will skip past all the descriptions and other yucky stuff.
The results: we DON'T know...still.
But, we will very soon.
Just a quick summary:
My Lupus is attacking my uterus. The doctor removed a pretty large amount of polyps from my insides (rather painful and not fun). She also realized I was not ovulating. Despite having a "cycle", I wasn't actually having a "cycle". Sucks, huh? Girls know exactly what I am talking about. So anyways, we now we will be working with our Ob, our high risk ob and a fertility specialist is now added to that list.
Considering everything, I am so calm. I did my "little" bit of tears and hugs with Justin. Hugged Luke ultra tight and said a prayer of thankfulness for the blessings God has given us. Then I was okay. I have a lot of hope! I sent a few text messages w/our close family joking around. Something like.."we might end up Tara & Justin plus ten". I truly was able to laugh about it. I guess I just know this is all in God's hands. It has never been in mine. I was told I would never have kids and I still have the most perfect, amazing little boy. He is a gift as will be our future lil tots. I genuinely believe that God will bless us with another child. I feel it in my heart. Deep into my soul.
I searched all the info I could find on our new fertility specialist. From what I read, she is blunt, a hard worker and the first doctor to have a positive in-vitro fertilization in Lubbock. All sounds good to me. I look forward to Justin and I meeting with her in a few short weeks to see what our next step will be.
Until then, I will just keep loving on our sweet guy. Baking for the holidays and playing on pinterest ;)
I will skip past all the descriptions and other yucky stuff.
The results: we DON'T know...still.
But, we will very soon.
Just a quick summary:
My Lupus is attacking my uterus. The doctor removed a pretty large amount of polyps from my insides (rather painful and not fun). She also realized I was not ovulating. Despite having a "cycle", I wasn't actually having a "cycle". Sucks, huh? Girls know exactly what I am talking about. So anyways, we now we will be working with our Ob, our high risk ob and a fertility specialist is now added to that list.
Considering everything, I am so calm. I did my "little" bit of tears and hugs with Justin. Hugged Luke ultra tight and said a prayer of thankfulness for the blessings God has given us. Then I was okay. I have a lot of hope! I sent a few text messages w/our close family joking around. Something like.."we might end up Tara & Justin plus ten". I truly was able to laugh about it. I guess I just know this is all in God's hands. It has never been in mine. I was told I would never have kids and I still have the most perfect, amazing little boy. He is a gift as will be our future lil tots. I genuinely believe that God will bless us with another child. I feel it in my heart. Deep into my soul.
I searched all the info I could find on our new fertility specialist. From what I read, she is blunt, a hard worker and the first doctor to have a positive in-vitro fertilization in Lubbock. All sounds good to me. I look forward to Justin and I meeting with her in a few short weeks to see what our next step will be.
Until then, I will just keep loving on our sweet guy. Baking for the holidays and playing on pinterest ;)
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