Standing on my own feet...

Confident!

--Develop an attitude of gratitude, and give thanks for everything that happens to you, knowing that every step forward is a step toward achieving something bigger and better than your current situation--Brian Tracy

-- I am so confident in my decisions about what is best for my life and the life of my family! Thankful for the lessons I have learned in the past- but definitely moving forward with the people I love...the people who have always been there. I feel as though, that million pound weight on my shoulder, is gone. Its peaceful.

Blessed~!

Today--I woke up feeling so blessed! More than blessed! I got that peace in my heart...its the best feeling ever!

“I love you; not only for what you are, but for what I am when I am with you.”

Lucas Lee,

I created this blog for you. I wanted you to know how much I love you, and how everything we go through with you is exciting&fun to me and daddy! I also wanted you to know how in love with your daddy I am ;)! He gives me butterflies everyday, he has taught me how to love and what love is. I love who I am when I am with you, daddy & the God! Us, 3, love YOU more than anything in the world.

The past 21 months have been wonderful, loving, creative, happy, exhausting, blissful and inspiring!

Lucas- you are a perfect fit into our lives. I know my life has just begun because I get to share happy, fun memories for the rest of my life with you&daddy. I love all of our moments- even when we are just hanging out. I love being a kid again with you =)

One day, when your looking at your baby/toddler scrapbook--I hope you come across this and read it. I hope you love God and love your family like you do now. I can assure you, we love you. I know in 5, 10, 15, 20 (eternity) years...I will still love you. There is nothing you will ever be able to do- to make me not love you. Love is not conditional- it is unconditional. Your innocent hugs-sweet kisses-laughs-giggles and smiles make my heart speed up&slow down at the same time. You make me so happy- yet keep me grounded.

God gave mommy&daddy a gift. He taught us how to love, he guided our friendship into a relationship. Our relationship into marriage. And our marriage brought the desire for a family. Lucas - then God gave us you! And our whole world started all over...with just the 3 of us. And I couldnt be more happy! Because of you 2 boys, I got to start living! Ya'll have brought the very best out in me, and I promise to always bring the best out in you!*

New Couches!

Justin took me on a "surprise" drive yesterday! He told me I had 1 more Valentines Day present! And so we went to Furniture Row and I got to pick out NEW COUCHES! YAYAYAY! Our current ones, we have had for a while&they are green lol. They are so comfy, but way outdated! Justin&I were more concentrated on buying our 1st home and completely redoing the entire house- paint, tile, etc...that we kind of just overlooked getting new couches. And then Luke came, so new couches were put off again. Finally, the time has come and we got new couches! Only bad thing....they wont be in for 5 weeks =(. But I stole this picture of them off their website! I cant wait for 5 weeks! New couch, new love seat & new chair =)! I am so happy!!!!!

Valentines Day Part 2

Lukes Nana&Papa (Justins parents) also sent Lucas a cute Toy story lunch pale that was filled with goodies! And they sent Justin&I a bag of Carrie (Nana/mother in law) homemade beef jerky! It is sooo good&hot...our favorite!

My champagne&Chocolate! (Please ignore the "i just woke up" face...gotta love those early morning pics lol) & yes, Luke is holding a bucket in front of my face lol...

Valentines Day Love

Valentines Day this year was spent showering Lucas Lee with love!

We hosted a Valentines Day party for Luke & our friends & their children on Friday! Me&my momma friends got our kids together for some yummy valentines day treats and crafts! The kids were making their own Valentines Day cards!

We just love every single one of these sweet kids! And I absolutely love their mommas too! They have all become regulars in our house, at birthday parties, playdates at the park, etc! Justin and I feel blessed to have them in our lives!

These were Lukes valentines day cards, candy&gifts from his friends! I love it!

Our Valentines Day present from my parents! They had an Edible arrangement fruit bouquet sent to the house. It was delicous. And a box of apples&oranges for Lucas w/a teddy bear!

I made my boys heart shaped pancakes for breakfast on valentines day! Cheesy, I know, but I love doing silly stuff for them! =)

Luke only gets candy when he potties on the big boy potty! So he was very excited to get M&M's just because lol!

My special valentines for my boys! I love celebrating holidays with Justin and Luke! I like to spoil them and make them smile =)

**Justin bought me a bottle of champagne and a vacuum cleaner lol! (I needed a new vacuum cleaner so i didnt mind the gift! Plus Justin picked out a red one- so he said it was in true valentine style. Ha!) Luke picked me out some chocolates YUM! I have never ever in my life had one of those huge heart shaped boxed filled with assorted chocolates. I was so excited to finally get one ;)

Before I was a mom...

---I got this poem off of an old high school friends blog page...I loved it& wanted to pass it on!


--> Before I was a mom,I never tripped over toysor forgot words to a lullaby.
I didn't worry whether or notmy plants were poisonous.
I never thought about immunizations.

Before I was a mom,I had never been puked on.
Pooped on.
Chewed on.
Peed on.
I had complete control of my mindand my thoughts.
I slept all night.


Before I was a mom,I never held down a screaming childso doctor's could do testsor give shots.
I never looked into teary eyes and cried.
I never got gloriously happy over a simple grin.
I never sat up late hours at nightwatching a baby sleep.

Before I was a mom,I never held a sleeping baby just becauseI didn't want to put her down.
I never felt my heart break into a million pieceswhen I couldn't stop the hurt.
I never knew that something so smallcould affect my life so much.
I never knew that I could love someone so much.
I never knew I would love being a Mom.

Before I was a mom,I didn't know the feeling of having my heart outside my body..
I didn't know how special it could feelto feed a hungry baby.
I didn't know that bondbetween a mother and her child.
I didn't know that something so smallcould make me feel so important and happy.
Before I was a mom,I had never gotten up in the middle of the nightevery 10 minutes to make sure all was okay.
I had never known the warmth, the joy,the love,the heartache,the wonderment,or the satisfaction of being a mom.
I didn't know I was capable of feeling so much, before I was a mom

Weekend Update...

Our weekends have been so busy lately- it is starting to stress me out AHH. I just want to lay around the house, in my pj's, watching movies one weekend soon.

This weekend we worked out cleaning out more space in the closets. We looked around at cars again. We just havent found that "one" yet. Part of it is Justin&I disagree on which car lol. I really want an Acadia or a Sequoia- Justin really wants a Ford Flex. I am not too worried about it because i know we will find it eventually. (Or Justin will give in lol) We have also been working on adoption paperwork. We still have even more to still print off and fill out. But, on a awesome note!- there are representatives from adoption covenant in Haiti right now! AWESOME! On saturday, I spent 2 hours of my day running&training for my half-marathon. Then a little grocery shopping & that took my entire saturday. Ughh why cant there be more hours in the weekend???

But I did have time for some sweet kisses from my Lucas Lee!

Justin & I love the "dollar spot" at Target lol! We always buy Luke stickers&&books and stuff just for fun! Justin saw these in the Target dollar spot& of course had to get 2 of them. They sword fought the whole time I was shopping in Target-( I swear I am raising 2 lil boys lol). Luke lovessss these styrofoam swords. He likes to "sneak" attack me and Jeter. Our poor dog =(...

Sunday we spent the day deep cleaning the house, doing laundry, etc. Then off to our friends the Martins house for the Superbowl! Clint cooked some delicious barbq chicken!& cheesy potatoes! Our other friend- Terra made some dips, queso, and a cake! YUM! And we brought some cookies that were Saints/Colts decorated! We havent had much time lately to go visit the Martin family so it was good to hang out! They have twin girls who are Lukes age so they played&Justin and I enjoyed some adult time lol!

When I got into bed last night I was so overwhelmed w/stress. It all hit me at once that we are making some huge changes in our life. Adoption-mentoring abused children- buying a new car- looking for a new house on some land- training for a half-marathon. I couldnt sleep at all last night I had so many things running through my mind. It is all going to be okay- and I do know that. I am so happy to be living my life & reaching my goals in life. It feels good to be in full control of my future & have an amazing husband&son to share it with!

Sleepover!

Luke had his first sleepover last night! Our good friend, Misty, had to travel to Houston for business so we gladly let Kelton Cash spend the night w/us. I made the boys tacos&guacamole and they played and played and played! Both were wore out and sound asleep by 9pm and didnt wake until 8am this morning lol! It was fun.

Cute baby boys in their Pajamas!

Luke playing w/some detangler of Keltons lol.

**It was a good experience to have 2 kids in the house. Its def double duty on diaper changing-potty training& feeding. But they had fun playing. We watched American Idol and the boys would get up and dance and clap...definitely feeding off eachother at who can be more silly.