What I want...

There are so many times that I look at Luke and wonder what I want for his life. I wonder what he will want for his life. And it always comes to the same thought...I want him to know that The Lord, his daddy and his mommy love him. It seems so simple- yet it lies in my heart every single day. It crosses my mind over and over again. No matter what path he takes- what sport he plays- what style he dresses in...I want him to know that he is loved by the 3 of us.
Tonight before bed time, we were reading Lucas the book of Genesis. Lucas was holding onto his pet giraffe! Justin leaned the giraffe over and gave Luke a kiss on the lips and said MMM--WAHHH! And all of a sudden Luke just busted out laughing! The sweetest sound in the world..there is no better sound to my ears. My whole world just stopped and everything was centered around his laugh! He kept laughing at his giraffe and giving it big, wet, sloppy kisses. I was completely captivated by this...i am still smiling over it!
It came to me as I was laying in bed waiting to fall asleep that I also want Luke to laugh all the time! I want him to always know that he is loved by God, Justin and me! Thats what I want for his life. I want happiness and love! I want his life to be a verb...i want him to spend his life loving, laughing, smiling, praying, and living!
Luke is growing so much everyday! He is learning and he is so smart already. It amazes me...to see how fast he can pick up on things. He loves to roll over to his tummy and back to his back again. He will roll across the whole floor doing this! (although changing a diaper has become an obstacle bc he wants to roll and roll and roll while I am trying to clean him off and put a new diaper on lol!) Luke loves for us to read to him and he loves playing on the floor. He is getting better and better at sitting up...and picking up his toys and bringing them to his mouth. He can do this with his bottle now too...he can hold it and bring it to his mouth and drink and set it back down...and so on. He is growing and maturing everyday! And he is happy doing it..and that is what I want for his life! =)

Just thinking...

Lyrics to He's My Son :
I'm down on my knees again tonight,
I'm hoppin' this prayer will turn out right.
See, there is a boy that needs Your help.
I've done all that I can do myself
His mother is tired,
I'm sure You can understand.
Each night as he sleeps
She goes in to hold his hand,
And she tries
Not to cry
As the tears fill her eyes.

Can You hear me?
Am I getting through tonight?
Can You see him?
Can You make him feel all right?
If You can hear me
Let me take his place some how.
See, he's not just anyone, he's my son.

Sometimes late at night I watch him sleep,
I dream of the boy he'd like to be.
I try to be strong and see him through,
But God, who he needs right now is You.
Let him grow old,
Live life without this fear.
What would I be
Living without him here?
He's so tired,
And he's scared
Let him know that You're there.

Can You hear me?
Am I getting through tonight?
Can You see him?
Can You make him feel all right?
If You can hear me
Let me take his place some how.
See, he's not just anyone, he's my son.

Can You hear me?
Am I getting through tonight?
Can You see him?
Can You make him feel all right?
If You can hear me
Let me take his place somehow.
See, he's not just anyone.

Can You hear me?
Can You see him?
Please don't leave him,
He's my son.
-- Mark Schultz

I heard this song on Extreme Home Makeover and it instantly took me back to remembering Lucas being in the hospital. I was in tears within seconds. I try not to ever think about that time in our life...I look at our son and see how far he has come and I just try to keep that positive thought in my head at all times. But when I heard this song it forced me to deal with some emotions I have still in my heart over watching Lucas go through so much sickness and pain as a little baby. I ran in his room and got him out of bed and just hugged him and kissed him over and over again. He never woke up but it made me feel better lol! But I love the message of the song...and even though he is not sick anymore...Justin&I ask The Lord to stay with him and watch over him every night and never leave him! Wow...our Lord is definitely amazing!

Teething...

Positive- Luke is so cute with his little teeth! And when he is in a great mood...he smiles so much to show off those teeth! He is very proud!
Negative- I have not slept in 6 days and now I am sick =(. Luke wants to be held 24 hours of the day the past 6 days. Combined in 6 days I have only gotten 5 hours of sleep. Last night Justin made me go to bed and he took over night duty so I could get a little rest. Justin is a GREAT dad and husband. He works so hard all day as a supervisor for a company at Texas Tech and then he comes home and immediately starts taking care of his family. I could not ask for anything better. But back to this whole teething thing- Luke refuses to sleep unless I am holding him. He does not want to eat and he has been throwing up. It makes me so sad to see big boy tears come out of his eyes. So I put away my headache and tiredness and give him every ounce of attention and love that I possibly can at this point. His first teething experience was only 1 tooth and was not bad at all. Right now he has 3 coming in at one time. Tylenol and teething tabs are not working so well this time at all. And...we have no family here to help so I can take a nap. Which is okay- he is our baby and we want to go through every experience with him. But sometimes Mama needs a nap lol!

Pumpkin Patch Pictures

We had a playdate with Heather&Tucker at the Pumpkin Patch Today! The weather was kinda cool so we didn't stay too long- but Luke picked out 2 little tiny baby pumpkins and we brought them home to carve this weekend! It was a fun day and I really enjoyed watching Luke and Tucker interact! Tucker is a bit older than Lucas but they were really cute together and Tucker was so sweet and gently with Luke!

A Whole New World...

Every single day Lucas is learning something new! It is so much fun...I love the age he is right now! He is so silly and he is on the move all the time! Today I am just feeling so truly blessed to be at home with my baby everyday. I just get mesmerized by him...i could just play with him all day. Today he is really starting to scoot ALOT. I went into the laundry room for like 2 minutes to switch the laundry and when i walked back into the living room- Luke was ALL the way across the floor! He was on the move to the laundry room to come get me! HAHA! He had such a proud&determined look on his face that he had almost made it. It was so cute&sweet! (*Note..it is time for Justin & I to baby proof our fireplace!)

Busy Week

This week has been so busy...and very fun! My Mom&Sister were here this week to watch Lucas while I finished my Phlebotomy clinicals! I am officially a Licensed Phlebotomist *YAY*! My next step is to start Nursing school and work in Labor and Delivery! Then, I will start Medical School and go into my true passion- becoming a doctor of research in diseases! Mark my word- I WILL find a cure for cancer, heart disease and diabetes. I love education and I hope Lucas will love it as much as Justin and I do!
Last night was very fun! We went and ate dinner with My Mom and My mother in law- Tamara, Justin and Lucas! I always love it when we can be with my mom and my mom in law! Our families live 7 hours away- so it is very special when we can all have time together! I thank God for those blessings in life...although they may seem small.
Lucas is talking a lot! I love it so much. I love hearing his little voice! He smiles a whole bunch and I am so thankful to have such a truly happy baby! When we were praying tonight, he was just talking and it made me smile- cause I knew he was talking to our Lord! He is still throwing up a lot and I gave it to God and Luke just loudly let him know he was agreed with that prayer request...it made me laugh! He is so silly! Tomorrow is family day! Just a relaxing day of watching football and cooking out steaks! *YUM*!!!

5 month pictures

Going to eat to celebrate Lucas Lee being 5 months old!

Lucas is 5 months

Our Little BabyBoy is 5 months old today!!! When Luke woke up this morning, me and Justin both felt as though he had grown so much in his sleep last night. He looked like a 5 month old baby! Where did our little baby go??? He is getting so big so fast! I had my first set of clinicals at the hospital today! I rushed home at noon when I was done to kiss my baby and love all over him! He was in his jumper and Nanny and Aunt T were of course taking 1,000 pictures of him! He was in a great mood! When daddy got home we went and ate at ShoGun to celebrate our 5 month old babies birthday! He liked watching them cook at the table and see the fire! He also LOVED the fishes in the pond in the entrance of the restaurant! He was in a great mood all day...being silly and funny as always! He is starting to sit up more and more during the day too!!! As I held him in my arms and we said our nightly family prayer together, I realized he is not so big. He is still mommas little baby boy! He still likes to be held and rocked and he still rubs my hand at night when he is sleepy! When me and Justin laid him in his bed we looked him over and decided that he absolutely still was our tiny, little, and sweet babyboy- despite being 5 months old today! =)

Big Step

Today was a big day for me. It was the first time I have left Lucas alone with anyone other than family. I have been lucky to be a stay at home mom- to watch Luke grow every step of the way. I have loved it! But the one thing that weighs on my mind all the time is that in Lubbock, Luke has no friends his age. He has barely even seen another baby. Most of my friends moved away after graduating and most of Justins guy friends don't have kids. So it is usually just me and Luke. I don't think I have been ready for him to be anywhere but with family, but I have been praying for an opportunity for us to meet other moms with babies. So we have decided to find a church in Lubbock with a nursery where Luke can be around other babies on Sunday mornings. We love our church home in Lovington, but just sometimes cannot drive an hour and a half every sunday. Plus, there are not any babies in that church at this moment. So Lucas always sits with us or family. So...to the point of this whole blog lol...we searched for a church in Lubbock and today we went! It was nice to have Tamara here because Justin and I can be shy about starting new things at time! And my sister is very talkative and does not know a single stranger in the world! I heard some of this particular pastors sermons online when searching for a church in Lubbock. I loved him...i felt the power of his message! So we were so excited for this morning and for our big step of Lucas being in a nursery with kids his age playing! So...we are of course dressed in our Sunday best and we get to church! Okay the positive- great sermon- great pastor- great sunday morning message! The negative- Lucas was the only baby in the nursery haha! But we did get through a huge step in the fact that for an hour somebody other than his momma&daddy or family held him and played with him and he was perfectly okay! He was in a great mood when we got him and fell asleep within 2 minutes of getting in the car! He must have had some fun play time! So our search for a church that can accomodate our whole family continues...

The White Family is Blogging =}

Well...our family has all convinced us to start a blog so they can keep up with Little Lucas Lee!!! Our precious angel is 4 month and 4 weeks old! He will be 5 months in only 3 days!!! He is doing so much right now! He has found his toes and tries to reach them so he can chew on them lol! He is holding his own bottle! He has a tooth! Yep just one that stands alone! He can scoot across the floor now in search of his bottle!!!! Life is good in the White house!